Stranger: Sherlock. I have good news and bad news. -JW
You: Tell me. - SH
Stranger: Good news. Hamish has a boyfriend who he really likes -JW
You: And the bad news? - SH
Stranger: His name is Alex Moriarty Moran. -JW
You: No. - SH
You: Moriarty is dead. - SH
Stranger: Apparently not.. Hamish is going out with his son.. -JW
You: I forbid him to do that. Where is he? - SH
Stranger: In the flat. -JW
You: I’m on my way home. - SH
Stranger: I’m at work right now. But you should talk to him. -JW
You: I will. - SH
Sherlock put his phone away and got out of the cab. He took a deep breath before he opened the door and walked upstairs. “Hamish?”
Stranger: Hamish was sitting on the couch reading and then looked up at his father. ”Yes, Father?”
You: ”At a word.” He walked straight up to Hamish. “I forbid you to see this guy.”
Stranger: ”You mean Alex. And why would that be, father.” Hamish said calmly looking back down at his book.
You: ”I don’t like his father. And you won’t get to see him any longer. Are we clear?”
Stranger: ”Its not up to you.”
You: ”Yes, it is.” Sherlock said firmly.
Stranger: ”I’m not going to stop seeing him, father.” Hamish said flatly, still not looking up.
You: ”Hamish look at me.” Sherlock tried to swallow his anger. “Do you even know this guy?”
Stranger: ”You mean Alex. Of course, we’ve been going out about 2-3 months now.” Hamish said, not looking at his father.
You: Sherlock grabbed the book and threw it through the room. “We told you about James Moriarty!”
Stranger: ”Yes, but that doesn’t mean his son is the same. ” Hamish picked up another book sitting next to him and smirked. Still not looking up.
You: ”I am serious.”
You: ”He could be just using you. James still wants to see me dead.”
Stranger: ”Mhmm” Hamish answered simply. Not looking up from his book.
You: ”You won’t go out anymore and I will register you at another school.” Sherlock sat down at his laptop and looked up some other schools.
Stranger: ”I’ll go out anyway.” Hamish replied shrugging his shoulders.
You: ”No you won’t. Your phone please.” Sherlock looked at Hamish and opened his hand.
Stranger: ”Nope.” Hamish answered and then got up and began to walk to his room.
You: Sherlock sighted and grabbed Hamish’s arm. He slit into his pocket and took his phone. “Thank you.” he sat back down at the laptop.
Stranger: Hamish glared at Sherlock and walked away muttering ”Fucking arsehole.”
You: ”I know, thank you.” Sherlock answered before he texted John.
Come home. Hamish won’t listen to me. - SH
Stranger: I can’t. Working. -JW
Stranger: Hamish sneaked up behind Sherlock, snatched his phone back and ran upstairs into his room.
You: John, I am about to lose control. Come home. Now. - SH
Stranger: I can’t, Sherlock. I’m in a meeting. -JW
You: So your work is more important. I see. - SH
Stranger: Sherlock. Don’t start with me. -JW
You: John, I can’t talk to Hamish. You always did that. He hates me. - SH
Stranger: He doesn’t hate you. Don’t be so stupid. -JW
Stranger: He thinks you hate him! -JW
You: He does this all on purpose. He knew who James Moriarty is and still he makes out with his son. John, Hamish tries to eliminate me. He doesn’t even look at me when I am talking to him. I am very positiv that he hates me. Now come home and talk to him before he meets this guy again. - SH
Stranger: Sherlock. When I met you, people told me I shouldn’t go near you, I didn’t listen to them, I ignored them. He’s doing the exact same, he obviously likes this boy. -JW
You: You forgot that his father is the most dangerous man in England. I don’t want him to get near this family. He’ll get hurt. - SH
Stranger: You were dangerous. -JW
Stranger: I’ve had so many near death experiences. But I stayed with you, because I love you more than anything in this world. -JW
You: You’re on his side. - SH
Stranger: Sherlock, I’m not taking sides, I agree with you that his father is very dangerous, but maybe he isn’t the same. -JW
You: Two of the most evil men breed and you think that their son is an angel? Dull.
Just to make this clear, I won’t survive another fall, John. - SH
Stranger: Don’t bring that up with me, Sherlock Holmes. -JW
Stranger: Don’t you /dare/ even say that! -JW
You: Do you think it was fun? Do you really think that? It wasn’t. If you knew you wouldn’t let Hamish see that breed of evil. - SH
Stranger: I need to go. -JW
You: No, John. We are going to talk about that right now. It’s important to me. - SH
Stranger: Before putting his phone in his pocket, he texts Hamish. But doesn’t reply to Sherlock.
You: Oh, we’re going to ignore each other. That’s wonderful. Thank you John. - SH
Sherlock leaned back in his chair and massaged his temples.
Stranger: Hamish comes downstairs and stands in front of Sherlock frowning. ”Father..”
You: Sherlock didn’t look up just waved with his arm. “Go out if you really need to. Your dad is on your side and arguing with him is useless.”
Stranger: ”Do you love me?” Hamish asked, sounding sad with a slight tremble in his voice.
You: Sherlock was surprised by that question and immediately looked up at Hamish. “I love you” he said.
Stranger: Hamish bottom lip trembled. ”Then why don’t you ever tell me..”
You: ”I thought it was obvious.” he stood up and watched Hamish. Sherlock was unsure what to do next. He never thought that something like that would ever happen then he suddenly remembered what John always did when Sherlock felt not good. He pulled Hamish into a hug.
Stranger: Hamish started crying onto Sherlock’s shoulder. ‘I thought you didn’t like me..”
You: ”You are my son Hamish and of course I love you. I couldn’t love you more.” he whispered.
Stranger: ”I love you too. I’m sorry.”
You: Sherlock pulled him closer. “Am I such a bad father?”
Stranger: Hamish shook his head. ”You’re a good father. I just.. I just wish you would talk to me, and tell me you love me… Because sometimes I think you don’t.”
You: ”I don’t know how to express my feelings.” Sherlock said and felt like a small child. It was the truth but he was a genius so he should know better
Stranger: ”You know how to express your feelings with dad..”
You: ”That’s something different. Your dad is grown up and sometimes I think he can read my mind.”
Stranger: ”If it really means that much to you, I’ll break up with Alex.”
You: ”Hamish.. it’s..” Sherlock broke the hug and glanced at Hamish. “Alex father almost killed John and me. When you were younger he even tried to hurt you.”
Stranger: ”I understand that. And I thought about it, I don’t care if he were to hurt me, but I can’t risk you and dad getting hurt.”
You: ”I don’t want you to get hurt and that’s the only thing I fear.”
Stranger: ”Did you and dad fall out?”
You: ”I don’t really care about my own life and I trust John enough that he can protect himself.”
Stranger: ”I don’t want anything to happen to you and dad. I don’t know what I’d do without you both.”
You: ”Hamish, please talk to John about that. I don’t think that I can allow you to be with that guy.”
Stranger: ”I’m not going to be with him anymore, father.”
You: Sherlock nodded and smiled weak. “That is very nice of you.”
Stranger: ”Have you and dad fallen out?”
You: ”No.” Sherlock sat back down. “Dad is coming back soon. He is just angry at me.”
You: ”Apparently I am a dick.”
Stranger: ”Oh.. Why did he say that?”
You: ”He didn’t say that. He ended our conversation and ignores me. I assume he’s in a bar drinking.”
Stranger: ”Did you say something to him?”
You: ”I mentioned something that might brought back painful memories.”
Stranger: Hamish frowned. ”The fall?”
You: Sherlock nodded and typed something on his laptop.
Stranger: Hamish looked at his watch. ”Its getting late. I need to go to bed, school in the morning.”
You: ”Good night Hamish. Don’t worry if you hear me and John having a dispute.”
Stranger: ”Good night..” Before going upstairs he said. ”I love you.”
You: ”I love you too.” he texted Hamish.
You: Are you planing to come home tonight? - SH
Stranger: Yes. -JW
You: When will it be? - SH
Stranger: On my way. -JW
You: Okay. - SH
Sherlock put his phone back in his pocket and waited for John to come home.
Stranger: John walked into the flat 10 minutes later. Walking straight past Sherlock and into the kitchen.
You: ”Welcome home” Sherlock said quietly without looking up
Stranger: John doesn’t answer, he puts the kettle on and sits at the table.
You: ”Hamish is going to break up with Alex” he said after a while.
Stranger: ”Right.” John said simply.
You: ”I am going to sleep at the couch later so you can have the bed.”
You: ”John talk to me.”
Stranger: John walked into the room and sat across from Sherlock. ”Fine. You really upset me. I don’t know if you’re over what happened. But I’m not. I don’t like you bringing it up.”
You: ”I’m not over it.” Sherlock answered, looking at John. “John I think I am afraid.”
Stranger: John looked up at Sherlock worriedly. ”What about?”
You: ”That it could happen again. That Hamish could get hurt. And that I lose you forever.”
Stranger: John looked at Sherlock sadly and patted his knee. ”Come here.”
You: ”Don’t treat me like Hamish when he was younger.” Sherlock said but sat down next to John anyway.
Stranger: John pulled Sherlock onto his knee and held him close. ”Everything will be fine.”
You: ”You can’t know” Sherlock laid his head on John’s shoulder.
Stranger: ”Well, lets hope it doesn’t happen again.” John ran a hand through Sherlock’s hair. ”But for now. Lets not worry, I don’t want to scare Hamish.”
You: ”My brain won’t stop worrying.” he closed his eyes. “My head hurts, John.”
Stranger: ”Its okay, Sherlock.” John said soothingly. ”Just try and think of something else.”
You: ”I couldn’t stop thinking about it for the last 16 years, John.”
Stranger: John kissed Sherlock on the forehead. ”Moriarty hasn’t bothered us in 16 years. Maybe he’s done now.”
You: ”He won’t stop until he destroyed me..” his voice wasn’t more than a whisper and his hands were shaky. “John I’m having this emotion again..”
Stranger: John gave Sherlock a soft kiss on the lips and ran his hands through Sherlock’s hair. ”I love you. Its okay.”
You: ”I love you too.” this voice broke and he sobbed. Sherlock never spoke about his fear. He swalloed all this for 16 years.
Stranger: John closed is eyes and rubbed circles on Sherlock’s back with his hand. ”Thats it, love. Get it all out.” John said calmly.
You: Sherlock tried to keep his sobs quiet but he was sure Hamish could hear him. “I’m so sorry John.” the first teard started to fall down his face
Stranger: John wipes away Sherlock’s tear. ”No need to apologize. Its okay to be scared.”
You: ”I’m supposed to protect Hamish and you.. instead he thought I hated him!”
Stranger: ”You just don’t talk to him enough.. He told me you don’t tell him that you love him.” John paused. ”But you can start. Because I know for a fact, that Hamish thinks the world of you.”
You: ”I try.. but I can’t.. I can’t tell him how much I need and love him.. I can’t find the words”
Stranger: ”Just tell him what you said right there.”
You: ”I’ll try to improve myself and be a better father..” he said after a while.
Stranger: ”You are a good father. Remember how good you were with Hamish when he was little.”
You: ”But I wasn’t good enough, John. Moriarty still hurt him that one time..”
Stranger: ”That wasn’t your fault.” John said firmly
You: ”Of course it was.” Sherlock answered immediately.
Stranger: ”It was Moriarty’s fault. Not yours.”